This week has been stressful, which at youth group we were told to do the exact opposite. This is more than be being a psychotic crazy ass bitch but there is so much running through my mind its crazy.
Deans list. Im not sure what the GPA for deans list is at other schools or if its the same but at COCC its 3.6. Last term i was .000001 away from a 3.6 gpa. So this year I’m trying harder. Harder than i ever have worked on ANYTHING in my life. My logic is is if i don’t get good grades, then i won’t get into a good school, and if i don’t get into a good school, then i won’t get a good job. if i don’t get a good job ill be poor and won’t be able to provide for my husband and kids.
I think i do this all for my parents
When i was younger and before my dad remodeled we had carpet in my living room. We would take out all of the furniture to steam clean the carpets so we’d move the chairs and stuff to the kitchen room. One morning it was super early, i saw my mom sitting on our what seemed to be big green arm chair staring out into our backyard. It seemed like she was looking out at a view or the sunset. Now when i take tests or make a major decision, i think of the silhouette of her in that chair drinking her coffee looking outside. I think of how i will later be able to that for her but in paris, or somewhere in hawaii.
I want to go to UCLA or UCSC or UCSB or Cal Poly. I want to make the people i love proud
At this point in time, i really want to give my entire life to my family. both the one i have no and who ill have in the future.
A compilation of the few shots I’m actually looking decent from our mini shoot last weekend. I realy miss performing!
waking up and getting up are two very very different things